Not Sure If I Really Need To Post, But...

I'm not really sure if I need to post anything, I haven't really had anything happen lately... also, even though I got a neat little hit-counter, I think I'm the only one who clicks it when I check out what's going on here... so, I'm not sure anyone's reading...

Ok, ok, I know, a blog is supposed to be about what the person writing wants to write, and not what other people are reading... one of my "friends" on here told me that I shouldn't worry about whether anyone reads it, just write it... I guess that's true, but...

I probably have a complex of some kind, I mean, I feel like, if I take the time to write this stuff out here in a public place, then I hope someone sees it... sorta like some kind of "need for validation"... not that I really want everyone to comment, if they don't want to they don't have to, but...

I guess it's why I'm afraid to finish all the short stories and novels I've started... I'm kind of afraid of the reaction I might get from people who may end up reading them...

O.K. then, sorry 'bout that... been feeling really tired, guess I just needed a quick "personal pity party" there... I just hope that no one feels I'm any more pathetic now than they did before... (haha, I hope that's a joke)...

Oh, and by the way, I want to PUBLICLY apologize (no, this is the last time, I promise) to someone who (I hope) will read this... it goes like this, I read a post of hers, dropped a comment, made a request to "talk" with her online, and, well, because of either the comment I left, or the way I made the request, I was misunderstood, and she kinda got "defensive", I guess I understand, but... in the end, I wish it hadn't happened, because the subject she THOUGHT I wanted to talk about was actually the LAST thing on my mind... what I really wanted was a view on life from someone with her attitude and lack of fear when it comes to discussing a subject...

But, oh well, I freaked her out, and now she's pretty much decided not to have anything to do with me, so... all I can say is, I HATE being misunderstood, and not given a chance to explain, so that's why I've taken MY time and space to try and apologize to her, and quit wasting hers... If you read this, please know that I've dropped it for good, and this here is the last I'll mention of it, unless you tell me you change your mind and want to talk...

I know that if you read this, you'll know who you are, so I'm not going to just drop your name or blog out here, I don't want to embarass you any more than I have...

Peace...