30 August 2005

Not Much To Say...

Don't have much to say tonight... Central air system has pretty much went out, need money we don't have to fix it, luckily the guy we're renting from has an insurance/warranty deal that keeps the cost down, only have to co-pay the service charge, which we don't have... Other than it being a roasting 90F in here at 9:00pm, all is good for now...

Oh, and as far as it goes, I'm going to try and NOT play the "I'm in the military, read my blog" card here... I'm only going to mention a few things at a time, I don't want this to become a "forum" kind of place for people to take sides on, and I darn sure don't want to end up in the middle of ANYONE'S personal feelings towards the war, or any other issues for that matter. I appreciate the support I've gotten on here so far, and I don't want anyone to think that I don't care about your feelings... it's just that, this is MY place here, and I promise not to try and make it a place where other people's issues are discussed, as I don't really want this to become a sounding board or debate place for anyone else...

This is, after all, MY CHURCH... and if anyone has any opinions to share here, it's ME and me alone...

I hope you all understand, this has been written as Church Doctrine...

Peace...

27 August 2005

Well, now....

It's Saturday morning, coffee's on... I've been up for a couple hours, just kinda waking up... it's been a long week, and next week is going to seem even longer (even though it's only a four-day week, because of Labor Day)... long working days ahead, very short nights...
I just want to set something straight here... I'm in the Army, but I'm probably not one of those typical guys you're used to hearing from... there's a few different types of Soldiers, ranging from the ones that know they're going to make a career out of it as soon as they graduate basic training and AIT, to those that want out as soon as they get to the reception area, before they even get to basic... some join for the college money, and get confused because they actually have to BE Soldiers in order to earn it... some join to get away from the bad things that have happened in their lives, or the bad things they've done, and they struggle every day to keep straight and sane and fairly sober... then there are those who join for the "glory" of it all, only to find that military service is, deep down, a job that you have to "plug away" at day in, day out, just like every other job... there are benefits, but a lot of Soldiers either don't know what they are, don't use them, or don't think they're worth everything else they have to do to earn them...
What gets me the most is, all of the people that join the military, and then get angry, or act betrayed when they actually have to DO military stuff... they finish training and get to their units and it's like, "hey, wait, I'm in the wrong place, where's all the people to do this work FOR me?", and these are the people that just don't understand that military service is just that: a SERVICE you perform for your country. You SERVE in the military, and the last time I checked, that means you WORK... also, these people feel like most everything they do is useless, or meaningless, and don't understand that most of the boring little jobs need to get done so that all of the BIG jobs can happen... and then they complain about having to do things for appearance sake, like wear decent uniforms, or get haircuts, not realizing that a good image makes people feel good about you, and therefore makes YOU feel better about the way you're treated... then there's the people who don't get the idea of "paying attention to DETAIL", which is a BIG military thing... because if you're observant and attentive enough to pay attention to all the details in the things going on around you, you'll absorb your training better, and be able to react well to any little thing that changes while you're doing your job...
I'm sorry, but it just seems to me that there are people in the military that just need a great big reality check... because with the world we live in today, they are going to HAVE to get their acts together, because they will absolutely HAVE to be a Soldier at some point in time or another...
And for those who DON'T agree with the government, and hate the things that the military has to do, and even wishes we didn't HAVE a military service to go out and invade, kill, and destroy other people and places, all I have to say to you is, "I'm proud to serve you, whether you appreciate me or not, and I will continue to fight for your right to live in a free country, where you can have all of the opinions, right or wrong, that you see fit to have..."
Peace...

20 August 2005

On A Hot Saturday Afternoon

Well, here on a HOT Saturday afternoon, we're melting. The central air unit is either freezing up, or clogged up, or something... I've made sure it's not dusty, and cleaned the filters, and it worked for about the first hour or so, but it's still HOT here... so, I'm not sure what else to do... it's humid, that's why I'm afraid the cooler is freezing up... but, right now, things are going o.k., we're about to have a B-day party for my step-daughter, she turns 15 today... right now she's in the kitchen trying to cook something she wants, while she sweats into a puddle on the floor... I really hope she knows that the reason there's so much heat for her to complain about is because of the hot stove she's standing over... haha she knows it, but she won't listen when I tell her not to stand right next to it for the entire time her food cooks.... I'm just dad, what do I know...
The love of my life is lying in our bed, reading a book and slowly perspiring her way through the mattress... (wow, that's not as pleasant as I meant it to sound) she's in a not-so-good-mood because of the heat, and the part of the month it'll be soon (in the P part of the MS)....
I'm just sitting here typing off into the internet, clicking through blogs and waiting for the sun to go down... other than that, all is well....
Peace......

14 August 2005

Hey Diddle Diddle....

I'm just sitting here on a Sunday morning, thinking about stuff that's not really important. I'm wondering what I should write here, because I want it to be interesting and worth reading. So, what's it gonna be?
I got it. I've done a list of things that are to be held sacred in my church, so here's a list of things that are at the opposite end of that idea, things to be called profane, or sins:
1. Judging someone and telling everyone what your judgement is. People who judge others and find almost infinite fault with them, and then insist on telling everyone else they can find. I may have some low opinions about some people, but I've always believed "if you can't say something nice..." etc.
2. Not trying to understand another person's motivations. This bugs me. I know some people do some stupid, irrational, thoughtless things, but they generally have reasons for it. I know that I don't always do things that make sense, even when someone else tells me what to do right before I ignore them and do my own thing. I HAVE A REASON for doing the things I do, whether they're mistakes or not. You're NOT ALWAYS right, just because you suggested something and I ignored you and I made a mistake.
3. Thinking that you are better than another person, just because you don't make the same mistakes the other person does. This kinda goes back to #1 up there. I know some really good people who makes mistakes, and some not-so-good people who look down on them for it. Just because you don't screw up, it doesn't make you a freakin' angel. You can still be scum.
4. Saying that you want to help, then making excuses for a half-assed job, or just backing out all together. If you don't want to do what it takes to help someone accomplish a goal, whether work or personal, then just tell them. As far as I'm concerned, it's better just to say "No" than to make some kinda commitment and then give them about 10%, or just backing out when they need you.
5. Thinking that when anyone tries to help you, it means they think you're incompetent or unable to function as a person. I HATE it when I see people who simply need a hand with something, and I try to help, and they get pissed because they think I'm treating them like a kid, or like someone that can't work alone. Or worse, someone with a real PROBLEM, and I offer my support and any help I can give, and they just blow up at me because they think that I'm patronizing them. When I offer someone help, it's because I JUST WANT TO HELP, because I feel generous and want to try to help them finish their task with less effort, or for the actual problems, it's because I hope that the person can overcome them, and if I can provide anything to make it easier on them, I want to do it.
6. The "I don't think things should be the way they are, so I'm not going to do the things I should" attitude. People with this attitude REALLY piss me off. They're the ones who say things like, "I don't think we should be told how fast we can drive" and then go 90 on a road that's only safe for 55. Or, when you're working, they're the ones that don't follow all the safety measures they should, because it takes too long. As far as I'm concerned, I may not like all of the laws or rules that exist, but when they apply, they should be followed. If you don't like them, work your way up in your job or your society and get to a position to change them. Until then, you really need to be like the rest of us, and "suck it up and drive on". And yes, my being in the Army, with all of it's rules and regulations, I see this attitude ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME.
7. People thinking that the whole world should change for them. This usually applies to the people in #6, who think that society should just give them all the breaks in the world, like they're special or something. Or they think that nothing is fair, there's no point in things being the way they are, and everything should change to a way that makes them happy. The only thing I can say to these people is, get over it. Society has been the way it is for quite a long time, it's not here just for your happiness, and you'll get along with a lot less stress if you just figure out how to do your own thing within society, instead of trying to fight and kick and cuss and scream and blame "the system" for all of your woes and disappointments. Once again, if you don't like things the way they are, get to a position to CHANGE THEM. Otherwise, deal with it like the rest of us.
8. When people don't understand the difference between "growing up" and "being a responsible adult". Growing up means giving up all of the things that make you feel happy in a basic, childish way. I'll never grow up. Being a responsible adult means doing what it takes to survive in society alone (or with a partner). Things like getting a job, paying your own bills, and taking care of yourself so that an outside party doesn't have to. I know perfectly healthy, capable people in their 20's right now that are sponging off of others for everything they need, and refusing to become productive members of society because they don't think they should have to "grow up". I pray every day that they'll get a giant wake-up call when their ass lands in the streets with nothing but the air they breathe.
All of the things and attitudes I've listed here are sins in my church, and are to be avoided at the risk of damnation.
Oh, as for the title of this post, I was watching a marathon yesterday of "Night Court", that funny ass 80's sitcom, and they showed one with the character Buddy (supposedly the judge's father), and he had a friend with him named Al. Al was didn't talk, until about the end of the show, and then he gave a speech about some things in the world that really confused him. Part of the speech was this little rhyme:
Hey diddle diddle, the cat and the fiddle,
is a lie like all the rest.
The astronauts killed the man in the moon,
and growing up took care of the rest.
Peace.

13 August 2005

Lazy Saturday Morning...

Just sitting here, flipping through blogs like channels on a television... it is SO freakin' cool to be able to just, randomly look into other people's heads like that... well, that's what it feels like, anyway...

So, I keep finding some of the weirdest things on here... most are pretty cool, but some are just plain odd... of course, it's to be expected, what with people being as different as they are, but there's the occasional one that just kinda gets your attention because of it's sheer amazingness (is that a word?)... here's one that is both funny and creative... at least I think it is... championhandwasher this guy is a cool nutcase that reads the personal ads on a website called craigslist , (which is funny in itself... if you go on there, pick a city or area, go down to the personals, and prepare to be astounded by the things people will put in an anonymous personal ad) and then he makes comments, changes things up, and generally has a good time with them... plus, his personal insights into himself are just comical (again, MY opinion)...

Enough for now, I just had to take time to highlight "the champ"... if you're put off by the first page you see, check his archives... he's not for the easily offended, but he's funny for those of us that can take a joke...

05 August 2005

Sacred Things

There are some things in this world that should be held close to us, and never let go... things that make us feel good, or give us strong emotions that remind us we're alive...

THINGS I LOVE:

The smile on my 6 month old granddaughter's face when I walk into the room and speak to her... her giggling laugh that's full of sweet, pure, innocent joy...

Touching my wife... just being able to reach out and feel her skin, hold her, know that she's near me... her touching me... (even though I'm ticklish as hell)... knowing that she wants to be near me, and that she loves me...

Watching the Sun rise... where I grew up in southeastern New Mexico, in the desert grasslands, on a partly cloudy morning... that magic hour or so, from about half an hour before the Sun breaks the horizon, to a half hour after it fully clears the horizon... the colors blasted onto the clouds, oranges, reds, even purple... starting the day with a show like that was amazing...

Watching the Sun set... for most of the same reasons as above, ending the day with a beautiful sunset was a promise of good things to come...

Women... just the way they are, physically and emotionally beautiful... when a woman laughs, it means to me that good things are happening...

Good food... when I eat something I'm in the mood for, and it's as good as I hoped it would be... it's a natural satisfaction that's better than drugs...

Having a really good day with my family and/or friends... when I just hang out with everyone, and we all laugh and just have fun... that's what life's really about...


All of the things above are things which make me feel good about life, and as such, here in the Church of Me, these things are to be held Sacred in my worship...

03 August 2005

A Self-Portrait.....


Here it is. A self-portrait of me... I took it myself, I hope it does me justice....

Like a Virgin.....

Ok, here goes.... I guess this is what it feels like to open yourself to someone for the first time.... I'll probably post something better here soon, but just like the first time, it's over before you know it, you're left a little confused, and not really sure what just happened....